This week I have felt like a bad mom, maybe because I have been. Sunday Tucker killed the 3 goldfish we bought him the day before. He kept asking "If I kill these fish will you buy me a big fish?" I couldn't seem to get it through to him that if he would just take care of the fish he had now he might have big fish later. He kept wanting to hold them and "pet" them. I was getting so fustrated I just gave up and let him do whatever. The result...

That's not even everything. When I was driving to pick up Hayden at school yesterday I didn't have Tucker buckled in his car seat and he fell out of his seat and shoved a cap of a pin up the roof of his mouth. Blood. Bad Mom!
Side Note & Pic:
He looks so cute in this "missionary suit" he likes to wear (thanks Uncle Sam.)

Blythe had the worst week of her life and I feel totally responsible. Tuesday she had her thumbsucking appliance put in. We have been trying for years to break her of this habit and I have had no sucess at all. I felt that at 6 yeas old and in Kindregarten now, she had to be broken of the habit. After everything I looked into and researched, this appliance seemed the only real solution. She has been miserable this week and on the way home from the dentist she was already saying she didn't want to go to school because she "sounded like a dork." For the first few days she had to get used to talking with the appliance in her mouth. Today she sounds fine, but I felt so bad. When she's looking at you, you can't even tell she has it in. It's been 5 days and she hasn't sucked her thumb, she couldn't even if she wanted to anyway. She hates it though and asks all the time when she gets to have it out. Hopefully in a couple months we'll feel confident enough that she has broken the habit. I hope I have done the right thing. To make me an even worse Mom I told her I wouldn't talk ab

out it on my blog. Bad Mom!



That's not even everything. I forgot about her Parent/Teacher conf. this week. What kind of Mom forgets about her kids PTC? For the record though she's doing great. She's at the highest level of reading they can actually give a kindergardner without invalidating 1st grade, whatever that means. But I can't even take credit for that. She's a smarty pants.
Hayden's science fair project was due Friday and after weeks of working on it he finally decided Thurs. to sit and write his written report. After complaining to me about how he didn't "understand" or didn't "know what to do" I finally lost it with him and yelled at him LOUD. I was so tired of him and the science project that I had done a lot of already. I sent him to bed early and then proceeded to feel like a horrible mother, which I was. The next morning I begged for his forgiveness and made a renewed commitment to not raise my voice like that again (for the hundreth time.)
Next week is Valentines week and I am hoping to show my family more love and patience. I get to redeem myself a little. I'm doing Hayden's class party and sending treats with the other kids for there parties. That makes up for it a little, right? I'm also going to try really hard not to watch T.V. until me kids are done with there projects for the evening or in bed. I am realizing how irritated I get when they are talking to me or asking questions while I am watching T.V. I had to say that out loud so I would actually try and do it. Okay, I'm finished now.